Sta.sh
I went to my grandfather's funeral today.
I didn't know him, I've never even had a conversation with him,
I must have shared only several words with the man in my lifetime.
I went for my mother's sake, and not my own.
I don't get to see her very often.
My mother and father are divorced.
They have been since I was six.
They will never get back together.
I arrived, stood silently with my father and brother in the front room of the funeral home.
I didn't know anyone there.
I went into the central room.
I saw my mother.
I shook hands with several of my uncles.
I didn't know a single one of them.
I looked at my grandfather.
For the first time in my life, I realized that he looked astonishingly like Charles Bukowski.
For the rest of the funeral that was all I could think about.
I thought of Charles Bukowski, and my grandfather I had never talked to.
I thought of how ironic it was to have a grandfather die,
that you had never talked to,
that looked like Charles Bukowski.
I thought of how ironic it was to be at his funeral.
I sat with my brother and father,
my mother came over and talked to my father.
My uncle came over and talked about my long hair,
and how he used to have long hair,
and how he used to smoke marijuana.
He affectionately referred to it as 'dope'.
I got the impression that he believed I smoked marijuana,
or 'dope' as it was affectionately referenced,
but that was fine with me.
I'd never touched marijuana.
He was a nice man, he seemed to me like a preacher,
but when he talked he was relaxed,
and he seemed open minded,
with a good sense of humor.
I thought I might end up like him,
whenever I grew old.
He talked for a while.
My mother and father talked for a while.
My father and I talked for a while.
My mother and I talked for a while.
My father, my brother, and I stood up to leave.
We left.
I had never once walked over to the casket to see my grandfather.
I had only noticed him when we walked in,
and thought about how vividly he resembled Charles Bukowski.
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You use the term 'fag' the same as a 10 year old boy would, my friends, please grow up and come to realize your false accusations are indeed false. Your 10 year old mentality might not be able to comprehend this, but all men are created equal, that means I am your equal, whatever age I may be, I am equal to you. You and I, we're on the same level, so what gives you the right to judge? Nothing at all? Exactly, you are no more or no less of a man than I am, as hard as that may be for you to believe, get over it.
You say that America is doomed, because of our whoremongery and our idolatry and our faggotry, seriously my friends, get a bigger vocabulary, maybe if you stopped inbreeding you and your children may have the mental capacity above that of a 3 year old, maybe, but it's doubtful, you're all still pretty stupid.
Since you have the right to judge, I'm taking it upon myself to judge you, and to tell you what is right, and what is wrong. Soooo, just to get to the point, I'm right, you're wrong. I see you for what you are, nothing more, nothing less. America is doomed because of people like you, you are the scum of society, you are the typical over judgmental Christians. You are what scare most people away from feeling the embrace of God, it's people like you who steer others away from Christianity.
How can you bring your child up like this. How do you consider yourself a mother or a father to your child? How I ask. You are so caught up in your beliefs that it's clouding your vision, think for yourself once in awhile, try not to be so closed minded, open it up a bit, see what's in front of you. Without you we have a better America, go away.
You're not wanted, you're not appreciated, you're worthless to society, you're only dragging us down. You think you may be abolishing everything bad in the world, spreading the good word. You're not, you're only twisting God's word so that it says what you want it to say. You are the worst kind of person. You manipulate, cheat, and lie, come to realize this.
You claim to preach the word of god, you claim to preach the truth, you think you're the judge, you think you're just the baddest stack of awesome to ever prance across these American plains. Well, you're not, you're nothing more than a speck of dust in this ever changing world. I ask you, please stop with this, you're only making America a worse place.
What are you seeking? I ask you this out of curiosity. It seems you have no other goal than to gain publicity. In fact, this speech I am writing is what you want, you want me to do this. I am submitting to you by taking time out of my life to write you this small speech at 2:00 in the morning, it's what you want. You live for the publicity, the fame is everything to you, you thrive on it, the infamy, you love it, you love being hated. You're the worst kind of person.
You accuse people of being whores, whoremongers, fags, idolists, when in fact, you're the idolist, you're the 'fag', you're the whore, you're the whoremonger. You're turning into the very thing you sought to abolish, to end. You are unable to see this though because your idolist beliefs are clouding your vision, you're worthless.
I'm taking a stand, a stand against this fallacy, I wish to show you the error in your ways, I want you to feel the way you make others feel, I want you to suffer, maybe through suffering you can come to realize how terrible you are, and try to become a better person, I doubt this will happen though, you're vision is clouded, as well as your mind.
Remember this message, post it on the site, show it to everyone, read it to the church, let them know, someone is taking a stand. Bye.